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Sunday, November 28, 2010
just feel like talking...
hello space, im actually blogging from home and listening to 90.5fm at 8.10am now! hahaha.
nah, just waiting to go for breakfast and the back to school for more studyyyying. i have to, because it's my core module, and it's the last (most confusing too) paper tmr. i cant believe how my saturday after my EC2104 paper just flew away. i can say i didnt study even though i did sit down to read my notes. nothing went in. oh well. it always happens after having a paper in the morning. i think i really studied harder for midterms. i was looking through my mid terms paper ytd, how well i did but i actually cannot believe i wrote all those! cos i couldnt remember. in fact i was pretty amazed that i wrote all that! =.= hahaha. im so so so tired! i actually fell asleep on the sofa, unknowingly, again, until my dad came home and i got awoken. that was 1.40am. and i was actually "talking" to you in my dreams ehh. but the most important part was disrupted and my dream ended... without a conclusion. perhaps the conclusion is to for me to ask you personally after tmr ba... you make me wish i could read minds so that i could read yours. or perhaps, understanding body language better. no, it is necessary, but it's not sufficient! haha! (okay, inside joke, related to my paper ytd lah.) okay i gotta go! but before i go, i must wish my dearest dearest a VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! you are an awesome friend to have, seriously. thanks for always being there to hear me out,no matter how many times i complain, grumble etc. and we can finally go for k-ing sessions soon! hearts you loads! as you know, i will always be here to lend you a listening ear too okay! hahaha. okay, i don't know if you still check out this space but yes, i can't wait for tomorrow! once again, 生日快乐 Wanching(oh have to mention your name before anyone misunderstand!)! hahaha!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
imy. do you know?
i miss my roomie.
i miss my mummy. i miss my daddy. i miss my bed. i miss home!!! dear roomie, i hope you are fine! i really miss you! :) and to you.. somehow i just miss the good old times when we talked about anything and everything. we laughed. i didn't have to think so much about how to get the conversation going because everything came naturally. but now, why do i feel like we cannot talk as much, as freely? it's always me trying to get the conversation going. while you, don't even bother to offer a word of concern.. i don't know what am i feeling now, seriously. ha! perhaps, i don't wish for anything more than knowing why/what happened. i know even a sms from you is a kind of 奢望... to whoever is reading this space, sorry for the "emo" posts. haha. this is the only place i can voice out my troubles. i know i do contradict myself between posts, but that is just how i feel at a point in time or for the period..
3 down, 2 more to go....
3rd paper down today.
smoked through my paper. i hope the marker would be lenient.. i tried to apply some theories and mention some theorists' names. but..how i wish i could quote my own name cos i think i came up with my own theories. LOL. this is the result of not being able to read the course pack=.= nvm, its over. now comes the crucial ones. it's so difficult and overwhelming i want to die already. headed to the library after lunch alone. saw jiaqing on the way and wanted to study with him after his lunch. bumped into him at the stairs. was gonna find him after i get my milk tea.. but i misunderstood what he said and went INTO the Sg-Msia Collection section when he was outside. found a seat cos i felt weird walking around alone in such a quiet place. and worse if he was sitting somewhere near yet i could not see. HAHAHAHAHA. eventually studied alone cos i was too lazy to move. and i left at 4 plus cos it was gonna rain=.= what an unproductive day! OH ANYWAY. i had my exams at sheares hall today. and their hall is like a condo/residence lahhh. damn niceeeee!!! damn envious. cos my hall is damn cui except for the room interior. hahaha. okay, at least i have a not-too-cui room. hmm. LOL. and my friends and i were like some tourists. LOL. we saw a damn cool thing that 2 of the residents did and we took a photo of it! HAHAHAHHA. but what is wrong with blogspot? why can't i upload photos! =.= sighs. super stressed! i wanted to go home today.. but i guess i wouldnt study and i still have to come back tomorrow=.= contemplating if i should just go back on saturday instead. perhaps i should.. to save time. okay, i SHOULD BE STUDYING. ROARRRRR :( two more to go. i don't want to screw these two papers up. please bless me with good health to chiong for these papers. my headache is making me super sian! Please please please.....give me the energy and luck! *prays hard* i tried to talk to you today.. you are still so cold..i guess it's obvious enough and i get the hint. but i really wonder, what exactly happened? i told myself i don't bother already, only to realise actually i still do...please tell me why...
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
i miss home..
have been in school/hall since last monday and counting.. actually i miss daddy n mummy..though i always don't express it.. monday come quick! :(
miracles...?
can someone grant me a wish?
i see special semester waiting for me already. i don't want..i really don't want.. i hate that module now seriously. 37 marks blank, out of 80 marks. and those that i attempted im totally not sure and most were incomplete..and it's a freaking 40%. seems small uh? but my 30% from mid-terms already flew away.. all i can hope for is a miracle now.. can anyone grant me this wish? :'( history was still manageable.. though i think it could have been good if i had time to read through my globalisation summary before my paper. seriously cannot believe i actually spent so much time on it, it came out, AND I ACTUALLY COULDNT RECALL A SINGLE THING. I JUST HELPED MY FRIENDS TO KILL MYSELF. SIGHS. but, let's hope only a minority did that question and i can move up the bell curve? =/ oh well.. have never felt so screwed up before no matter how terrible my papers were before. i feel so drained... tell me everything will be fine.. tell me i havent screwed up my uni life.. tell me i do not need special sem.. tell me miracles will happen...... :(
Sunday, November 21, 2010
i realise i over-emphasized history and neglected my other modules for the past week. previously i didnt touch history at all. maybe that is why i had to catch up. but actually, it's because we splitted our work to do summary. good and bad. im not gonna touch hist again i need to study for pf. pf is one tues. i still know nuts about it and i still have 3 lectures, 5 tutorials to go. i need to make friends with it and understand it within.... i duno how many hours. i dun dare to count. i know im utterly ill-prepared.
amazingly, i havent gone home for 1 whole week. yes, 1 entire week. i had magdalene to morning call me this morning. went to buy yakun for breakfast. read abit of hist and i was so sleepy i took an hour's nap instead of 15mins. and i woke up cos of a very bad and scary dream that felt so real. i felt i was gonna die cos someone was strangling me from behind and i could really feel the pressure. i woke up. i was very afraid. continued with history. (again) had the koka noodles from welfare pack for lunch. (now i see the usefulness of cup noodles in welfare pack. cos even someone who dislikes cup noodles will eat it someday. haha) facebooked. watched videos cos my head was exploding with the overwhelming information and the heat was driving me nuts. waste time. im gonna study pf after dinner. im hungry. very hungry now. time for dinner! :D
Saturday, November 20, 2010
im scared :'(
i feel like i havent studied a thing for the past 2 weeks..
spent too much time on history yet i feel i havent studied much becausei seriously cannot remember a thing. perhaps because i havent memorised because lecturer said it's a theme-based exam, not memorising exam. i tried to understand what is going on in each theme but seriously speaking, throw me a theme now, i doubt i have anything to say. im really freaking out.. i can totally imagine myself on the day itself. really hope my mind doesnt go blank PLEASE :( today was another day wasted. reached library at 1215 and then went for lunch. read through hist summaries but yes, nothing much retained. and i spent 2 hrs on it. 4pm, tried to do online webcast. then i decided i should read first, dun understand then do webcast, and i really don't understand. Webcasted at 5pm till 6.20pm. dinner at fong seng with my friends. back at ard..8? not too sure. and stupid M1, lousy connection. made me waste my time trying to connect to the internet to do my webcast. failed. 9pm, library chase us out. no choice. left. back in hall, cant stop looking at the beautiful photos uploaded this morning. and now it's 1041. really freaking hate myself for wasting time. time just flies. i cannot finish my revision! im very scared... i really feel very very very ill-prepared. monday 9am. 1st paper. SIGHS. i missed caroline's birthday celebration. even decided to not go home and stay in hall on a saturday night. what a sad life i have. ah tiongs stay in library mug, i stay in lib duno do what. enjoy aircon?=.= i need motivation.. motivation, where are you? i wish im a sponge...read and absorb everything i read...
from the library...
Day: Saturday
Date: November 20, 2010 Time: 2:58AM Location:NUS Central Library blogging in the library in the middle of the night. slept at 4.45am yesterday, trying to do the history summary. and today, i finally finished it, after a week? seriously have been reading so much history for the past week but yet, i can't seem to remember much. tried to start on the 2nd set of notes for Public Finance today, and i almost went bonkers. but thanks to lijie for explaining to me! :D i think i need to do webcastsssss. but, today is already Saturday. *panic* sighs. well oh well.. i hope i can still think in the mornings because 4 out of 5 of my papers starts at 9AM! =X was talking to lijie about how come after having taken so many exams in our life as a student to-date, we are still so afraid of exams. =.= if only exams doesnt make up the bulk of our assessment. =( anyways, surprisingly, I woke up at 8.45am this morning despite sleeping at 4.45am=.= dragged myself out of bed to go collect hall breakfast. intended to come back and sleep after collecting my breakfast then wake up to eat it but today was special. they had fried egg sandwich, still hot! so I thought I should eat it before it turns cold. after that I tried to force myself to sleep somemore but I couldn’t get to sleep=.= I finally left hall to study with lijie today! i felt so cooped up in my room and i needed a change of environment. and EC was in the forum too :D magical smile and words of concern made my day again! haha. but yes, what esther told me makes sense too.(x.x) I know there is this line that cannot be crossed still though (: eye candy will remain as eye candy. my motivation for a few more days and 1 more sem. SIGHS. but I should count myself fortunate to have made a new friend! :D studying was quite fun today despite the ultra lack of sleep we both had. watched funny videos, talked about random stuff and camwhoring in library with the cool Mac camera effects! :D:D:D oh seriously, im getting worried. why am i still so awake at this hour?! =x in a few hours' time, some of my friends will be having their 1st paper. it's really scary. all the best to them! (and i seriously need to study PF soon) JIAYOU. looking forward to post-exam outings! :D p.s. i hope i won't face the same problem of "suddenly have nothing to do" after exams. haha. shall go back soon and SLEEP. good...MORNING world! :p Time: 3.24AM Location: Central Library =.=
Friday, November 19, 2010
candy candy makes my day (:
4.27am now.
can't believe my unintended 1 hour nap just now was so powerful. think i gonna be damn cui later on. Shits. anyway,on a VERY happy note, eye candy actually dropped me a private message on facebook today! was totall stunned when i saw it was a message from him and not some AJC Alumni updates. He really makes my day! what a nice eye candy i have(: havent seen him for almost a month already. and icelle always messages me to tell me she saw my eye candy/her eye candy. and she sees him very frequently these few weeks! maybe that is why my eye candy says... "hey never seen you in school anymore:( you nv mug in school le ah? " hahaha. thats part of the message. the full message shall not be publicised(: anyway he is so uber nice right.. hahaha. he totally made my day mans! and i got so excited telling esther about it, and later wanching. HAHAHA. we all agree he is OH-SO-NICE! hope to see him in school tomorrow! i need his magical sunshine smile to motivate me. (though i gonna look like a super big panda, with the fact that im still online at this wee hours=x) after this final exams, i will only have 1 semester or less to bump into him in school before he enters the working society! :( well, at least we got to know each other. (: okays, time for bed! morning world!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
F-A-T-S-S-S-S-S-S!!!
shits, i feel a layer of FATSSSSS around my arms, waist, hips, small thighs, cheeks. EVERYWHERE!
i should stop munching. after-dinner paddle pop is making me feel super sinful and guilty now. boohoo! MELT AWAY YOU FATSSSSSS! =/
周杰倫 Jay Chou - 蝸牛 Wo Niu
this is the song that i will listen to whenever i feel overwhelmed by the amount of things i NEED to study, and the thought of my cui C.A.P. ..apparently today i felt i studied so hard. but time flies faster. havent finished what i need to study, and i havent done the summary. however, i emailed my history prof today cos i was supposed to see him if i have problems with studying hist. he is very nice. and i think, maybe i shd email him instead of going all the way down to see him since having a hardcopy of Q&A is better! haha. super stressed now. i hope this song can continue to keep me going. my head is getting heavier.. please don't let me fall sick! >.< JIAYOU (:
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
stayover
sighs, 11:36PM. almost another gonna be over soon.
i overslept this morning. missed hall breakfast for the 2nd time for this semester. HAHA! awesome rgt. countable # of breakfast missed instead of countable # of breakfast eaten. ($.$) (though i missed alot of dinner. trying to eat in hall everyday now!) oh anyways, lijie came to stayover at my hall last night! we studied at central forum till like...11+? then decided to come back cos we wanted supper. and i don't wanna eat too late. haha. was supposed to stay up and finish reading my notes for hist so that i can do my part's summary. but damn loser, i kept dozing off at 2+, and finally gave up fighting with the monster at 2.45am. woke up today, had milo and marie biscuits for breakfast. lijie woke up. we studied. i tried to focus on hist, but i kept thinking about public finance(PF). nothing goes into my brain. SIGHS. and we digressed to viewing the Wedding Videos etc. on FB(the evil one!!!). finally decided to go for lunch after we bathed. then realised YIH wasnt opened and my neighbours queued for 45mins-1hr for Subway=.= so lijie and i took 151 to KR terminal. and we had lunch at Fong Seng! my 1st visit to Fong Seng in 1.5years? LOL. nice nasi lemak. but both our stomach felt weird aftermath. indigestion we supposed.=X went to 7-11 before heading back to School. we printed notes and walked back from Central Library. Lijie shared her story. i think im very kaypo? i like to listen to stories. hmmm. heh.. back to hall and tried to study AGAIN. this time, with indigestion, i seriously felt like vomitting reading the hist stuff. CRAP. =x so sian ttm can.. but good thing is i had company today! if not i will really just go mad alone in my room. it was nice to have lijie's company! when we are very stressed, we can share links and stories. but of cos, cannot spend too much time/ do this too frequently when exams are coming but yes, i enjoy these times much more than mugging. =( and we talked about many many random things today! :D:D:D i cannot wait till exams are over to celebrate and really enjoy! sometimes i do feel left out cos i spend lesser time with them studying in library.cos i always come back to hall for dinner these couple of weeks and sometimes i study in the forum instead of the CL=/ but i hope they havent forgotten about me! haha. i doubt they did ba.. uni life is indeed better with them, though studying is super stressful. cos i study uber slow. anw, yes, it's fate that we met in uni, lijie! this is a turning point in our uni life! LOL. alright, 20mins just flew away. =.= back to mug :( ARGH. come'on, i can do this! Z-monster OUT YOU GO!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Till The End
so sweet.. the 1st time i hear it it gave me a feeling like it's one of the songs that they play at weddings when looking through the photos collage. hee.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
曹格 - 丑角MV
我只是 寂寞的解藥 我也知道 曲終人該散了 只要你開心就好 若只是你生命的配角 娛樂過你也驕傲 就算聽你說他的好 心裡對你再多愛慕 仍是站在遠處 只給你祝福 你有權利尋找 你最適合誰的擁抱 既然愛過 還你自由 我不哭不鬧
Sunday, November 7, 2010
[MV/HQ] Elva Hsiao 蕭亞軒 - 錯的人 Cuo De Ren
我们不应该拿自己的幸福开玩笑... 女生门, 眼睛要放大! :D :D :D
Saturday, November 6, 2010
at the end of the day...
it's the photos and the memories that will not change even as people do...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
我们都该爱自己! (:
HELLO!
YES! presentation is FINALLY OVER! no more projects + no more essays! :D:D:D but, < 3weeks to FINAL EXAMINATION. =.= and guess what? was packing my table yesterday, and i realised, i havent learnt much since after mid terms cos i had been doing hist essay, then soci essay, then the project. TOTALLY SCREWED UP MANs. 3 wks to cover what i have missed out for 5weeks worth of lectures for 5 modules. how awesome! plus, i feel so burnt out. am so so so tired already can... SIGHS. just so feel like sitting down and doing nothing but sleep. but i know i am not the smart ass kind. so i HAVE to mug. in fact, i need to mug even more than others. :/ well, i guess nothing is fair in life. there is no point in envying others. so what if the person is rich? so what if they are smart? so what if they are pretty/handsome? so what if you are not what others are? EVERYONE IS UNIQUE. and i think we should just be ourselves, find someone who loves us for who we are and not for what they want us to be. it's pointless to live your life for others. it'd be so tiring to always be trying to run to reach the expectations that people set for u. Life is too short for any kind of redundant stuff. we should just live FOR OURSELVES. (unless your character really stinks to the core? hahaha!) and yes, i shall be happy to be me and be satisfied for what i have and who i have around me! if people don't appreciate you or what you did, let them be! life has to go on. it'd be such a waste to keep ourselves hanging there to please someone someday, right? love ourselves! (: |